The first time - MS

It's finally out!! :) Well, this blog took a long time to come out.. Can't blame me :P I've just been occupied since the first & hopefully the last time that i get Multiple Sclerosis (MS).

What is MS, you're gonna ask.. In layman's terms, your body is attacking yourself. In professional terms, it's a disease (your own immune system) attacking your central nerves. It can cause disabilities, is a chronic illness etc. In short, it's a disease with no cure at the moment. The Interferon jab of 3 times a week is just a form of prevention. It's to slow down the disease from attacking you any further.

Most people would ask the question 'why me?' at the beginning but i didn't. It wasn't until i got the 'side effects' of MS then i started asking 'why me?. But praise God!! i recovered from the side effects fast each time and it's been nearly 2 years since i got my first attack :)

It hasn't been easy. But i believe nothing is impossible with God. From the beginning (when i was hospitalized with the attack), God spoke and guided me to the story of Paul with a thorn in the flesh, 2 cor 12:7-10. God said, My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.. That story and this verse gave me the strength to go thru this. The period that i was hospitalized taught me to rely on people, strangers who soon became friends. The nurses were helpful and i really learn a lot from them and that event. My family & friends taught me a whole lot.. I was reminded that 'the joy of the Lord is your strength' :)

It's been something that i've been holding on since that day. The joy of the Lord is my strength :) I came back from my MC telling my leader & my friend that I am NOT gonna settle down, get attach etc because i saw the financial & emotional burdens that my family members carry and i didn't wanna burden any guy unnecessarily. And the best news is, I'm a wife-to-be =D This guy, my guy accepted me for who i am with MS & all. He's been the best!! The number of times that i 'claw' on him (due to the emotional changes - mood swings) & he's still accepted me for who i am is more than i can ask for. Truly God is just awesome!! He's our Jehovah Jireh, our provider & I know that God is also our Jehovah Rafa, our healer.

I'll blog more often on MS, how i go thru it etc. There's just too many things to say in 1 blog :)